Unanswered Prayers

We ALL have stories.

Me, 

extra ordinary stories.

One of my goals in life is to write a book.

A book of ME.

Where I came from and what I know.

It's ironic that blogging has become a passion of mine.

Its my first step in putting it all out there,

SHARING my story.

SO I present to you {chapter 7} of MY STORY:

Many of us know Garth Brooks hit  "Unanswered Prayers".
This song hits close to home.

A good majority of my college years were spent being someone I wasn't.

I was lost, confused, miserable. 

I was chasing a boy because I was certain HE was the ONE.
The relationship became an obsession.

I fell into many traps and lost myself in the process.
I turned from God, my family, and my friends.

I prayed every prayer I knew, 

for HE to be mine...

and was ANGRY when 4 years went down the drain.
I felt alone.
Empty.
I was sure I would never recover.

I found my way out by looking straight ahead. 
I put my blinders on and never looked back.

Why am I bringing up the past, you ask?
My past has paved the way for the life I lead today.

Looking back, 

I see things clearly and realize that I wasn't cut out for THAT life.

God had different plans for me.

Something FAR more beautiful.

The truth is,
this time of year I think heavily about my past.
I have no idea why.
It held me hostage for SO MANY years,
and then...
One day I woke up and was READY to close those chapters.
Sure, the decisions I made still weigh on me at times,

but slowly, I've learned to let go.

 I wanted to share this with you,
{as it has been on my mind}
Because just maybe, you too,
will see the beauty in unanswered prayers.